Nights when I can't write

There are days, nights... whole weeks when I can't write. It's all too much: the disgust, the dismay, the betrayals piling up around us.

I recall the Millennium celebration -- do you remember that night when we all celebrated, together, as one people without borders? That was the first and last night we were 'one.' And undoubtedly there were wars and corruption and poverty and despair already well underway. Perhaps we just didn't see it.

Perhaps I just didn't see it then.

Now its everywhere. Our nation is going to hell in a handbag.

I always loved that saying, 'hell in a handbag,' but today it fails to make me smile. Hell in a crate. Hell in an ocean. A planet full of hell, and heating up by the day, with no attempt to slow down the damage we cause while our own nation falls apart structurally from neglect, and our government implodes.

I have struggled to write lately, because I feel as though I'm writing the same words day after day after day after day. It never gets better. It doesn't even get close to better. It just keep sliding off the cliff into hell.

The corporate media lies continually; even when it is obvious that we know they are lying, they continue to lie. They will take propaganda from absolutely anyone, without questioning it -- if you pay them, they'll print it. Especially if it empowers their corporate interests.

My representatives apparently haven't read the Constitution and have sold our civil liberties down the river -- and these are the Democrats that 'represent' me. The Republicans in Congress seem flat out determined to dismantle the Constitution entirely. With friends like this, who needs enemies? My Democratic representatives, with their consistent caving, have done more damage, created more immediate 'danger' than any terrorist.

The war is an unmitigated disaster, and nearly everyone in government is lying about it -- the only people telling the truth are the troops as they return; and then they get punished for it, after all they have already sacrificed. This government only survives on lies. Representatives like Kucinich who tell the truth are marginalized and laughed at by the establishment. And for some reason, we listen to them.

The economy sucks, and they're trying to lie about that too -- although failing miserably because everyone can now see that it sucks sucks sucks. An economy based on funny-money was bound to implode eventually.

All of these cheap, Chinese imported 'goods' (and notice this is our only choice these days -- Chinese imports or NOTHING) save the big, greedy corporations money, and undoubtedly were made with tortured, sweatshop labor in China. And of course, these items were once made in the USA and provided jobs (and the results didn't poison fellow Americans.) But due to this fantastically profitable globalism, corporations are raking in the cash and poisoning our pets, our kids and undoubtedly poisoning us. This Chinese stuff seemingly was all made with lead -- I'm still trying to find a hose nozzle without lead in it.

It all SUCKS.

Anything to make a buck. Health, safety, basic DECENCY... dead and gone in this country. Sold for a buck.

Since 2000 we have gone into a NOSE DIVE. We can just call it the corporate neo-dive and be done with it. They get rich -- everything else they left in their wake SUCKS.

I'm sick to death of seeing it, and I'm running out of ways to say it every day.

And now our own war satellites are being turned on us, apparently so powerful that they can see through our roofs and into the very ground. Are we Americans so very dangerous? Granted over one quarter of all prisoners on the planet are in American jails - so our government has apparently always thought so.

If we have this technology, the question absolutely begs to be asked: how could we have failed to catch Bin Laden? Why is our government turning this technology on us instead of him?

Land of the free, home of the brave? Well, it used to be.